Confessions Of The Innerself

By P Sasikanth

There’s no one around

Nobody can see you now,

Nobody will judge you now,

You can be honest and be with me for a while.

Unveil that thick mask and be with me

let’s face this stormy night together.

The stormy night,

with its winds strong and its tides high

plays with us like an unwanted doll.

With no sails and no compass to navigate,

we have no hope for tomorrow

I wonder how a tomorrow would be,

without us being there.

NOO!!!… don’t run away,

Don’t veil me back again,

to play the pretense of all smiles and all happies.

I’m tired of it

I can’t play that game no more.

Yes, I know why you veil me…

To make sure we survive,

It’s for us, I know it well…

But this time don’t desert me,

I fear the rumbles of the sky

And the swirls of the sea

I can’t live here no more alone.

Remember those many nights

you came to me, crying like a baby

And promised to never leave me again??

Yet you deserted me in the dawn…

I held my pain all these years

Believing your lies,

that someday everything would be fine for us to stay together forever.

But did that ever happen??

You came, only at nights, and only to cry…

So, don’t fool me this time.

Why do you fear to drop the veil??

Why don’t you dare stop the pretense??

Coz they’ll abandon you?

Did you forget the nights you were alone, crying in pain?

they’ll abandon you anyway my dear…

Let’s not do that deception trick, yet again.

I’m tired of this,

I have no hopes for tomorrow

I have no more wishes to survive

All I yearn for, is your hand in mine in this stormy night.

Look at those big black clouds that want to sink us down

And the storm that yearns to topple us;

It’s scary, it’s dead scary

I know you feel the same

But let’s not leave our hands this time.

I fear this raging sea, awaiting to swallow us

like an untold nightmare.

I want to close my eyes tight

And pray to someone to end this night.

but would that work??

Let’s shed away those false hopes and wishes

And let’s stay in each other’s arms for tonight.

If we sink…we’ll sink

And if see a tomorrow, we’ll see it together.

By P Sasikanth