Behind This Wall...

By Atraiu Gupta

obtuse fluctuations

in beams of light,

feelings flickered.

erect a wall, i did.

invigorated it with memories-

and salty moment, prickling with

disgust.

like a moth wandering towards the lucid light,

vanishing into cruel dungeons,

wandering towards its death-

i encaged myself;

behind the fringes of my fickle mind

slips of tongues, i controlled

barely living in the false hopes,

i kept clinging to this life.

(flimsy butterflies fluttered around,

maundering, in the crevices of my mind.

shallow bars confined my infinite ingenuities.)

a silenced beating heart,

i laid, against a cold willow tree

two fixated eyes, i had, on orion.

cradling tiny words, and smacking them

against on top of each other.

soaked in gasoline, emblazed in infernos...

a burning facade of librettos, left shrouded

all around me.

a simple syllable upon another,

stacked it up, yes, i did!

and hid behind the barrier of

a thousand feelings.

wet tears drying off the dust,

settled on the hinges, of my fatigued tongue.

deserted my voice, the day i abandoned my mind…

vestiges of my soul, i left in my words

the ones, that never were spoken aloud.

(glimpses of the penumbra, fell on me

never did i fathom, the turn of time.

twilight grasped my neck, and strangled me,

in the terror of distinct sounds,

i shut myself in,

as the last drop of my soul, melted away.)

curled around the bricks, i hugged the stone cold wall

slept on my enigmas, hoping to elucidate in my dreams

home, i called; a brick wall.

layered with resonances and sounds,

and ricochets of screams.

on these walls, plastered remnants

of the stained carnage, of my murky mind remains.

(screams of dread. ahhhhhhhh)

following the swarm of thoughts,

staggering in a mindless state.

droplets of blood trickled down my face,

as i glimpse the cracks in my wall,

i howl, with mortal terror.

my fortress, my barrier, my home,

it was, all that i had left

forged from the

fractured fragments of my mind.

light began to seep in,

as i begged to the unknown

to leave me; to help me stay rooted

right here, in my glacé darkside.

frightened, i was, to go beyond my wall,

trapped up here, i felt home.

i felt safe.

(to rescue the barriers of

my soul from crumbling.

defenseless,

i annexed fragments of me,

from my mind.)

By Atraiu Gupta