Apne Jaisi Mai

By Shubha Mishra

Apne me hi apne jaisi hoon main!

Mai aisi hoon ,mai waisi hoon

Sabne kaha ki kaisi hoon main ?

Maine kaha,

Waisi , jaisi ,kaisi bas aisi hi hoon

main

To kaha mujhse jamane ne , “jo

tum ho aisi ,to aisa hota nahi jamane

me’’!

badal le tu khud ko jo rehna hai is

thikane me!

Maine kaha!

, ki maine kiye jatan hain lakhon

ki ,ban jau main waise

“jaise hote hain sab jamane me”

Magar !

Thak gai mai ! har gai mai , toot si gai

main!

Khud ko hi bhool gai mai,

Yahan sabko hasane me , manane

me!

Aur kahun mai kya hal apna ae dil,

Jamana bhi nikla kamjard aisa!

ki jisne , rakhi na baki kasar mujhe

rulane me!

Girna,uthna aur uth kar fir se girna,

Ban gaya jaise muqaddar sa mera !

Fir ek din wo aaya jab ,

Main nikli khud se khud ko milwane

me!

Bahut laga tha waqt nujhe is rooh

uljhi ko suljhane me!

Khud me khud ko dhoond pane

me,behlane ,fuslane na jane kya kya

samjhane me!

Kho jo gai thi mai shayad is berang

bedhang jamane me!

Mili mujhe jo mai ek waqt ke bad ,

To roe hum ji khol kar !

Baithe hum kuchh der sang ,

Gila kiya , kiya shiwa

Kahi suni jo beeti thi is jamane me!

Hatho ko liya hath aur kiya waada

maine khud se

Nahi rakhoongi kasar mai bhi ise

nibhane me

Ki aisi waisi aur chahe kaisi bhi hu

Rahungi waisi hi,

Apne me hi apne jaisi hoon main!

Mai aisi hoon ,mai waisi hoon

Bas ab aisi hi hu main!

By Shubha Mishra