Anticipation

By Dr Anjali Limanpure

I know i fumble & I'm all shy

I wish you could read all that is into my eyes

With every step you take in opposite direction

I think of you everyday, minute & second

It's scary how you are always on my mind

I write these poems and can't even send

Do you do that too?

Search for me, when you walk into a room.

It's 4 am in the morning

& i can't even see what I've been writing

Yes, you do that to me,

And act like it's nothing.

I don't know if any of this is real

I wish I knew how you feel

It's funny you don't have a clue

I have a lifetime worth of plans with you

All the ways I can fit into ur arms

wrape them around me, and I'll be home

so much of emotions, I wish I could tell

a wave that hits me and I gladly loose myself.

Everytime you are around me

its hard not to reach,

Take whats mine and everything we could be.

It's a fact, I never stopped falling

I'm a lost cause, there is no saving.

And sometimes i wonder

If confessing is any better?

This bubble is my safe heaven

I can dream all my life & die a happy woman.

And I'm not weak, don't get me wrong,

This anticipation is better than being turned down.

Not every ship that sails reaches a harbor,

And I'm no damsel in distress who needs a saviour.

You are the northern star

And I'll always cherish you from afar.

All i want is for you to smile

Because those damn dimples are my lifeline.

I know its a lot but nothing needs to change

You can be who you are and I can still grieve your absence.

By Dr Anjali Limanpure