Am I Flawed To Wish To Relive With You

By Unnati Naik

Am I weak and pathetic if I still pine for you?

If I remember how you noticed my absence every minute

kept names every day

If I yearn for the way you held my hand,

more of me,

in that sweet way

or how you had that cunning but proud sparkle in your eyes when you made me happy

If I miss how you crept in,

in your T shirt on me and were a little worried about it tearing, but stayed anyway

Am I obsessed if I still dream about you?

Or if I get high on your memories unknowingly lust you

Or If I saw more than the gap between your fingers filled with mine

if I believe that you still feel for me

Should I feel conceited?

If one day I let go of my thoughts,

to think and repeat to myself that "it is over"

And maybe in the course of that believe in it lesser and lesser,

end up writing more about you

Am I bipolar if I play your role in my conversations in my brain and be kind to myself?

Am I flawed if I wish to relive with you in some other day in some other world?

By Unnati Naik